One week already

I can't believe it has been almost a week already. Last week this time I was having contractions on my couch wondering what it really meant. Now here we are and our little Madelyn is almost a week old! It has been an amazing week. I still am in shock of the whole thing and I just stare at her all the time not believing that it's real. She is so tiny and needs us so much right now. I guess that's a really good thing in some way because I am having the mommy blues a little. I love her and holding her but I miss the constant 24/7 togetherness we had when I was carrying her. I already miss feeling her move and never having to be away from her :( I know that we have lots of time together though and I will get over these emotional days. Being a new mom is hard. All the love I have for this little girl turns into concern and worry about everything. Is she eating enough? Is she comfortable? Among others....I know a lot of it is just silly worry but I can't help it. We are trying to get her to gain weight now. I am never sure if she is eating for long enough periods of time and getting what she needs. At her weight check on Thursday she weighed the same. The doctor said that they usually expect newborns to lose weight in the first week so the fact that she hadn't was very good. I just get worried about why she didn't gain weight. There is one other worry I am facing that I would rather not discuss quite yet as it is upsetting to me and I don't want to make it public knowledge until I know more. I will in a couple weeks though and hopefully it's no big deal. I just want the very best for Madelyn and thinking of anything less than the best for her gets me upset. She is beautiful though. I am amazed at how much love I can feel for something so small. Even when I wake up throughout the night I don't mind because I know I am doing it for her.

My mom, Andy's mom, and Kailyn leave tomorrow morning. They have been a huge help this week and I appreciate it. I am glad they got to come down and be a part of Madelyn's first week and see some of the things that have already changed with her. We will certainly miss them. I do think it will be nice to be just our little family at home though. I know that they are only a phone call away if we ever need anything!